“If She Only Knew Me”

I received the following poem from a professor I have this semester. I couldn’t help but share it, it really touched me. It is from the perspective of a 9 year old student, and I think that everyone in the education field or working with children should take the time to read it over…

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“If She Only Knew Me” -Jeff Gray and Heather Thomas

If she only knew… If she only knew that I had to get my little brother up and ready for school this morning, she wouldn’t have fussed at me for being a few minutes late.

If she only knew…If she only knew that I didn’t get to eat supper last night, she wouldn’t have taken the extra cereal that Chris gave me at breakfast.  She said, “Only one cereal for each student.  That’s the rule at this school.

If she only knew…If she only knew that I had to watch my little brother last night while momma was at the park with her friends, she wouldn’t have punished me for not getting my homework done.

If she only knew…If she only knew that I like to make stuff during science class, she would let us make rockets like Mrs. Bagen’s class. Instead, we read about rockets from a book.

If she only knew…If she only knew that her rules are as long as the lines at the city pool, she would make a shorter list that we could remember.

If she only knew… If she only knew that my daddy left me and momma when I was two, she would stop telling me that she’s going to call my daddy for a conference.

If she only knew… If she only knew that I get really upset when Leonard talks about my momma, her biggest rule would be, “No talking about other people’s mommas.”

If she only knew…If she only knew how much I love to draw, she would  make me the class poster maker.  Instead, she doesn’t let me because my handwriting isn’t so great.

If she only knew…If she only knew that I need to talk if I’m going to learn, she wouldn’t send me to the principal’s office so much.  She says my talking is disruptive in the classroom.  She’s the only person talking. In my opinion, that’s a disruption.

If she only knew…If she only knew that when she gets mad and screams at the class it scares me. Last year, Mrs. Stewley never raised her voice at me.  Mrs. Stewley was as quiet as a crook after midnight. When Mrs. Stewley talked, kids listened.

If she only knew… If she only knew that some of the boys are trying to get me to join their gang, she would help me say, “No.”

If she only knew…If she only knew how much I like to run, she would have told me about last week’s track team sign-up.

If she only knew… If she only knew how much I need my mentor here at school, she would let me see him more. He thinks I’m cool.

If she only knew that I know stuff that she doesn’t know. I know where to get bus tokens.I know the best place to buy a pop. I know what time the sprinkler comes on at the park. I know what it means to get “dissed.” I know how to live without electricity. I know how to entertain an entire room of people with my personality and humor.I know what churches have the best rummage sales. I know how to stay safe in my neighborhood. I know how to keep my clothes from being stolen at the laundromat.

I know a lot more than she thinks I do…